Sometimes it's the feeling of being pressured into it that makes it harder to give up. It's just an added stress on top of the others you're trying to deal with by drugging yourself anyway.
The fact is, if I still really wanted to smoke and obliterate myself with alcohol on a regular basis, I would still be doing it, regardless of how many people disapproved. I'd just make sure they didn't know about it most of the time. But I am presently enjoying the experience of getting reaquainted with my mind, without having to excavate it from a drunken haze. The nicotine replacement is harder to shake off, but I'll get there eventually.
One of the tricks is not to deny that you want that next cigarette, but to tell yourself that you're not going to have it, and that it's your decision not to have it. That way, you're not lying to yourself - you're making a conscious decision to be strong.
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Date: 2005-10-04 09:03 am (UTC)The fact is, if I still really wanted to smoke and obliterate myself with alcohol on a regular basis, I would still be doing it, regardless of how many people disapproved. I'd just make sure they didn't know about it most of the time. But I am presently enjoying the experience of getting reaquainted with my mind, without having to excavate it from a drunken haze. The nicotine replacement is harder to shake off, but I'll get there eventually.
One of the tricks is not to deny that you want that next cigarette, but to tell yourself that you're not going to have it, and that it's your decision not to have it. That way, you're not lying to yourself - you're making a conscious decision to be strong.