In which I struggle to comprehend my feelings...

[dormant_dragon]

I think I am strong enough - but every so often, the beast reaches up to grip my heart with its iron paws.

My love is far away, and no matter how often I tell myself that it is not forever, there are moments I want him to be sharing with me, that pass by without him. Even just the times I want to reach out and hold his hand, or sit in companionable silence with him, I know it will have to wait.

And sometimes waiting is the greatest test that life can lay before us...

Comments

[japester.livejournal.com]

we might not feel like we are strong enough, but somehow, we will come through our time apart together. That is a given. this time apart, will merely make us appreciate each other more when we are together on a more permanent basis, rather than these passing ships in the night, like we currently are.

My greatest annoyance, is that I cannot be near you while you are achieving one of your greatest moments. and it's a 2+ year moment.

[sagebee.livejournal.com]

My apologies for poking my nose into your affairs once again, but it is a Blog after all ;)
I like what you say about waiting being the greatest test ... the inaction and passiveness of waiting can sometimes be more than we can bear. But then there's the positive side of waiting: the anticipation and the excitement and then, finally, the fulfilment. Which sometimes can be less than we anticipated. And sometimes much more.
You are travelling a very rocky path. You will need courage. Your loyalty will be tested and you will despair more times than you will remember. Remember, lust is as strong as love and your loyalty will be tested. Never take things for granted, never take things as a 'given' - this will mean you are always ready with your quiver full and your mind sharp. And lastly, be ready to forgive. Ready and willing.
Good luck. A journey of experience is always worth travelling.